After a two month hiatus, I have returned to the blogging world. When I entered Jessica Lawlor’s Get Gutsy essay contest at the end of 2013, I thought it would be the beginning of another great year of blogging. But I read the entries from so many other inspiring and accomplished bloggers and I started to wait for more inspiration.  I was waiting for some divine, fabulous, unique idea that I would just have to write about. And then one week became two and two weeks became a month and now it’s been over two months without a word.

At first, I was waiting for something great to write about, but then I had too many ideas. I had too much to say and not enough time in the day to write it. Therefore, I kept putting it off, waiting to be overcome with a brilliant stroke of genius. I told myself I was waiting for a whole uninterrupted day when I could just put down every thought onto paper, or digital paper. And then I would get that whole day and spend it reading or catching up on Netflix shows instead.

I wanted to see the whole post formulate in my mind, fully played out, before I committed to writing it down. I wanted to write something that would have meaning for every reader and would strike a cord in every heart and perhaps change the world.

We had a planning meeting at work last week where we reviewed the goals and accomplishments from 2013 and thought about our goals for the coming year. And one thing that I thought was interesting was that they wanted to hear our personal goals. They wanted our personal and professional goals written down and said that when goals were written down they were more likely to be accomplished. So I wrote down that I wanted to work on my blog.

I meant to write about some New Year’s resolutions a few months ago. I feel like New Year’s resolutions get a bad rap because everyone makes the same ones (lose weight, eat healthier, go to the gym, spend more time with family…) and everyone forgets about them after about two or three weeks. So I told myself not to succumb to the bandwagon of resolutions.

There’s something to be said for resolutions though, in that they make us think, really think, about where we are in our lives and where we want to be. But we don’t have to think about that just once a year. We don’t have to use the New Year as an excuse to make one or two lofty promises we know we won’t keep. Instead, maybe it really is better to focus on a few, achievable goals, and revisit those every so often to see where we stand.

This post is step one on the road to achieving my goal. In writing this, and thinking about other ideas I have floating around in my head, I am also wondering if I should re-think the focus of my blog. Perhaps my original plan to write my thoughts about the world is careening off into another direction as I get older and settle into my current role as a marketer, a girlfriend, a city-dweller, a gym-goer, and an amateur cook. I love to write about my life and my thoughts, but I worry about putting too much of myself online. Then I remember that every person in the world is basically being watched by the government and media companies and search engines and credit card companies, simply because everything we do online is able to be tracked and never goes away. So is there any point to trying to keep a private life private anyway?

There is plenty to think about and plenty to say. But one thing is certain for me. I will continue writing this blog and I will make a point to write more often. And someday, I will write a post that will change the world.

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